When Jesse was little I used to tell him that the Chinese new year fireworks were really just for our birthday. To make a wish under dazzling skies all lit up. To know how loved he is and that anything, everything was possible.

Every year of the last 21, since my beautiful blue eyed boy was first placed in my arms as the most blessed gift I was ever given on my birthday, I have watched his remarkable growth. Marvelling at him and letting him try for himself and watching him step into his own ways and own life a little more every year.

Today my baby is officially all grown up and the pangs are deep and wide and wonderful. How do we hold this immensity of proud love in just one hummingbird heart? My little bird flew a few years ago now, fully launched as his Dad said at the time. But as we sat on a blanket last night and watched those same fireworks across the harbour, I just could not believe how fast this day came.

We may raise our kids but this one raised me too. Being his mother forged and shaped me in a way nothing else could have. He remains the best decision I have ever made.

Jesse, you are the gift that keeps on giving. Here's looking at you, kid. I am so glad you picked me to be your mama.